Dear Big Boy,
I want you to know that dad loves you very much. You have made me very proud of you simply for coming into this world.
You may be too young to understand this now, but before you were born, the doctors told us that we couldn’t bring you into this world without the help of medicine. We were told that Mom had a condition that prohibited our ability to create you.
The good news is that they were absolutely wrong. And now you are here lighting up our lives with your silly sense of humor. Impressing us with your academic and athletic gifts. And giving us the biggest smile when we see your desire to praise God. I think you love praise and worship of music more than you love me.
Seeing you become a beautiful and handsome young man is one of my greatest joys. Which brings me to why I should apologize to you.
Before you were born I did not have the same kind of wisdom that I have now. I chose a career that guaranteed that I would spend a lot of time away from you and your mom.
I didn’t know you didn’t have to have two jobs and all the overtime to provide everything you needed. I did not know that the way I had been trained to work all my life would make me lose the opportunity to give you the most valuable thing you would need from me. What was and is my time.
I remember having to take you to daycare very early in your life because your mom and I had to work.
I remember the cry you gave, and the look of not understanding why we were handing you over to strangers to take care of you.
That is a memory that will always be with me. It serves as a reminder to me of the wrong direction I was on. Every time I said to your mommy “I have to work,” they tore me apart. I finally reached a point of exhaustion.
Then one day I was forced to choose between taking care of you or losing my job. I thank God that He gave me the wisdom to realize that no job or amount of money was more important than me being there for you.
NOT A THING!
That moment helped me correct my course. He started me on the entrepreneurship course for the purpose of full time and financial freedom.
I am dedicated to being there for you whenever you need me. Even when you’re older and don’t think it’s so cool to hang out with me anymore. Even if that happens, I will be available to you at any time.
It is a pleasure to know that because I made the decision to change the course of my career, I can be there to pick you up and drop you off at school. It’s so important to me because there were times when you were younger, that I left when you were sleeping and came home and found you doing the same.
His mother would inform me about his developments of the day. And as I smiled at the news of his daily accomplishments, the sadness of missing those occasions would continue to eat me up.
I really don’t miss having to miss those moments anymore. I am so grateful that I can see your beautiful and smiling face every day.
While you are still quite young, your dad is very busy telling like many other dads (and moms) how they can spend more time with their beautiful children. I’m trying really hard right now for when you start exploring careers and what you want to do with your life. You will also know how to work smarter and not harder.
I love you so much, Big Boy. You are very important to me. And at the same time, you are the most important piece of why I have made these important and necessary changes in my life.
I pray to continue to become the man you think I am.
I pray to continue to become the man God called me to be. Not just for you and your next sister. But also for you and your children.
When I leave this earth, I want to leave a better place for you, your sister and your children.
When I leave this earth, I want you to know that you are SO valuable that I changed my life to give you the life you deserve.
When I leave this land my son. I want you to be extremely proud to have called me Father / Dad / Dad.
This is dedicated to my son Randall.
Sharing God’s agape love
Rodney K.
AKA The Entrepreneurial Father
